A Name more powerful than cancer

I just received a prayer request for a man with a young family struggling to fight cancer. It seems like every week I hear of someone else who has been diagnosed with this disease, and I HATE that it strikes fear in our hearts. I know that it is a normal reaction, but in the words of the Dean of Students at HILC “To Hell with Cancer!!!!” It’s from Satan and we have authority it the name of Jesus to command it to go back where it came from. The name of Jesus Christ is certainly more powerful and stronger than the name cancer. I believe in healing. I believe that it’s God’s desire that we experience healing on earth with my whole heart and mind. I have no hesitation in praying and believing that God wants us healed, whether it’s from a cold or cancer. I am very thankful for the resurrection power in the name of Jesus Christ; I pray that as the church we choose to believe and trust that name.

search for significance

So, I’m doing this study called the search for significance. The first week it listed several areas that people commonly struggle with and said to mark the ones that you thought might apply to you. I looked at the list and thought…hmm, I don’t think I need to do this study…I think I’m good, I’ve got this stuff down.
Then week 2 hit… It was all about the fear of rejection. Then I began to realize… yeah, I’m screwed up in the head.:) It focused a lot about perfectionism and our need to have achievement after achievement, success after success. That is certainly true of me. Not that that’s wrong, but it stems from a need to cover other faults and inadequacies within myself.
I realize now that I can not handle criticism. I get really defensive and I perceive criticism often when it is not intended.  Also, I place unrealistic expectations on myself. When I feel like I fail at those things, I react in by finding fault in other areas. 
I’m praying that as I complete this study it will help me to deal with this issue in my life now that I can see it.

25 Random Things About Me

1. I rarely wear eyeshadow.
2. When leaving a C of C parking garage one bright spring day after class I called my Dad and told him my battery in my car was dying or something because my interior lights on my dashboard would come on even though my headlighs were on. He told me to call him if I broke down… I left the parking garage and began driving down the road. I stopped a light and pushed my sunglasses up on my head… that’s when I realized…
3. My first real job was at Lens Crafters working in the lab literally making eyeglasses. It lasted about a month. When no one could figure out why all my glasses kept breaking… I threw in the towel, and faced the fact that I was never meant to have a technical job.
4. I lived in Hell Hole Swamp for the first 4 years of my life. Ha!
5. I’m scared of the dark in a big way. I always sleep with a nightlight (or bathroom light) on unless someone is in the room with me. 
6. I once was in a movie… I was going to give the title, but then I thought it sounded kind of sketchy.
7. I cheered in the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade. We performed live and if you watched VERY closely you could have seen me on TV.
8. I know this could cause a lot of feedback, but I don’t like pets, especially ones that shed.
9. I HATE peas, especially canned! My parents (mainly my Dad) used to force me to eat them until I threw them up all over the kitchen floor. However, I’ve been known to enjoy a bowl of split-pea soup, but I pick them out of vegetable soup or pot pies.
10. I stopped doing homework in the 2nd grade. In the 4th grade I turned in blank sheets of paper for it. 
11. I love walking in freshly cut grass barefoot.
12. My left ear lobe is twice as big as my right.
13. If I don’t like what someone is saying to me, I bite my tounge between the teeth on the left side of my mouth. You can’t tell it by looking at me…however, you might be able to notice that my jaw shifts slightly to the left.
14. I once sat in Darlene Zchech’s dressing room at Hillsong Conference and gave her some stats for a message she was writing.
15. I’m a naturally very shy and easily emabrassed individual. To some of you that’s no suprise, to others you’re like “yeah, right!”
16. Myers Briggs personality- INTJ
17. I defend the under dog, even if I’ve previously criticized them. 
18. I sleep with one arm extended under my pillow…on my side, often with the arch of one foot on the knee of the opposite leg…kind of like a flamingo, but lying down. LOL! 
19. When I’m thinking about something that I’d rather forget, or if I’m really scared, I put my fingers in my ears and say “I love Jesus” over and over again. 
20. My favorite movie growing up was Gone With the Wind.
21. I have 8 nieces and nephews.
22. I wish it were Summer year round…a good 90 degrees and Sunny would be perfect.
23. I can’t handle criticism because of my fear of rejection… however, I can dish it out, probably because I’m trying to deflect attention away from my own faults.
24. If you ask me a question and I want to lie, I’ll say “What?” even though I heard you perfectly clearly.                                                                             
25. I don’t really like coffee even though I drink it occasionally.